I want to stop

I used to be a lazy son, or brother, of friend or student, or anything that I can be. Looking back, it was funny how people tend to put high expectations on me. Alhamdulillah, Allah made the situations favourable to me thus I somehow managed to stand where they expected me to. And their high hopes on me did made me work a little bit extra hard. For example, when exams are coming, my friends tend to think that I already understood everything. Thats when I need to revise first before explaining to them. In the end, it was fated that I met their expectations.


That aside, when I returned home, I became a 'garfield' for quite some time, not knowing what to do. Mom did asked me to do this and that but only a few was done. She even asked dad to repair my forgetful brain! Haha..

Until one day mom no longer asks, but she does everything by herself. Thats when I realised that I need to do most of the things before she does. That is because she is unwell, but somewhat workaholic. We does that too sometimes.. We did what we did even when we know that it hurts, to ourselves or the others.

When someone keeps on doing good to us, we will feel very ashamed if we can't fulfill her small wishes. This made me think, how many times did we disappoint Allah? Waay too many and yet He never stopped giving us what He gave..

Mom, and those around me, I wonder when can I stop becoming a pain..