Independence Day

Salaam! Sure its been a while.. (again)

The past few weeks has been very hectic because of the impending Brunei's National Day celebration which is... TOMORROW! Its quite fun though, got the chance to meet so many people again after so long. Finally I was able to spend what little time I've got with the people that I haven't meet for ages ranging from former teachers, friends and students. With time passing swiftly, and everyone's got things to do, I was so happy to meet again after so many years.

Looking back, people sure can change a lot, amongst them - us. Off course its not about the time, but rather about the situations the we're being put in, the decree bestowed upon us and most importantly, its about us becoming the better version of ourselves. For me, I'm very happy and especially grateful that I've been given the chance start anew and mend (or at least tried) those mistakes with whatever strength and time that I am lent. I'm very grateful that I can improve my relationship with other people especially my family even if it's just a little.

You know, I've always been thinking that my parents will feel very lonely if its just me around. I don't talk much, don't react much either. I'm a person who can live a number of days without talking, effortlessly :p Not only that, I think I'm becoming more affectionate too especially towards the aged and the young ones. Today I'm very happy that I can have breakfast again with the 86 years old grandpa after the congregational Subuh prayer and a short tadarrus. Being unable to see him for quite some time because of his sickness and my absence, only then I realised that I loved him like my own grandad. I've got moms at the office too! People treating you like their own child is very touching from my point of view. Perhaps we needed each other to replace those we've missed, and mend what's been broken.

Its been quite difficult for me too when the time comes to leave home. Being only able to take a close look at those nephews once every two or three weeks, they seemed to have grew much every time I see them. Once playtime is over, I'll just have to bid my family goodbye and quietly make my move to the car through the back door or else those poor child will cry ':-D

There are days that I begin to loose track of myself, writing just happen to be a good way to remind me of who I am. I think I've scribbled long enough, just a good flashback of my independence day, that's where it all begun. When we surrender ourselves to Allah, only then we will attain our freedom.