Lesson: Toothache part 2

“Lai, whatever medications that the last doctor asked you to take, you stop them, okay?” said Dr Dimple, “For the time being you just take what we’re about to give you.”

Huh? I don’t think that she’s much older than me. And more importantly, the thing that I thought was cured, is actually rotting.

“I think other complications on your body are caused by that,” added the nurse.

Oh..

That makes sense.. 

While busy searching the cure for the side effects, we didn’t realize and tend to forget about the true causes. So applicable in our life, dunia-ly… and akhiratly.

Notice that how one sin can lead to another?  This lately I’ve been trying hard to fix things around me, and within me that seem to be falling apart, how I act and what’s in my thought, every single one of them. I wondered, why do I fail each and every time? Little did I thought about the earlier illness, the most stubborn, and most frustrating, and their links: damage of the qalb. Or perhaps we DO know, but we chose to dwell in the sea of denial?

You’re precious to me, but sorry I have to pluck you out. I'll find whatever strength I can get, insya Allah. Again, to persevere is easier for me... Either until Allah allows the situation to get better, or He gives me strength, or He take whatever strength that was lent to me..