When I was younger, I used to have these unpleasant dreams, quite frequently I'd say. Dreams in which I saw faces of the persons whom I loved, crying, because I am not like what they expected. They cried, because I failed to fulfill their hopes. They cried, and it hurts. It hurts because I know they cared for and loved me too, at least back then. And waking up from those dreams were often accompanied with a strange feeling, and trickling tears. I guess that was one of my drive to work hard back then.
After Hijrah, I promised that I will never be sad nor shall I cry for this world again. Thought it won't be that difficult. But things sure are getting hard these days. Alhamdulillah, He was always there for me, and I know that He always will. Why does it pains others when I'm not that kind? Or I'm not that patient? Or simply because I'm not like what they think? Its just doesn't matter anymore. As I complained to Allah about my problems with people's expectation, suddenly I realised that His expectations of me are what I should be more worried about.
"And I did not create the jinn and mankind except to worship Me." [ad-Dzariyaat, 51:56]
Allah loved us more than anything does in this world, He gave us everything so that we can serve our purposes and live well here in this world, and especially the hereafter. Yet all our lives, what we've been doing? And all these hearts that Allah lent us, did we used them to love Him back?
So listen dear self, and listen well. Here in this world, as long as you're a true believer, then there's no need for you to be sad. At times, you will be hammered with pressures, but you will make it through as a stronger steel, insya'Allah.
"So do not weaken and do not grieve, and you will be superior if you are [true] believers." [Ali Imran, 3:139]
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