Salaam. Alhamdulillah, yesterday was my 26th birthday and actually it doesn't really matter much to me. At least not anymore. Because I've got my revert day nowadays tehee.. birthdays to me are not anymore important than ordinary days. Perhaps some birthdays are significant to others but certainly not mine.
But the fact that I already lived for 26 years without much contribution to the well being of the world, to Islam, at at least to my family, is a bit disturbing, and resentful. Living for another year means that I'm one year out of sand! (in the sand glass). And I don't know how much sand do I have left too. This shouldn't be the issue though because it already settled four years and seven months ago. It's just that thinking that meeting my Creator while I'm not as clean is overwhelmingly fearful.
These time of the year sure is gloomy, reminding me of so many things that happened like since the beginning of time. There are days that I miss some that left yet again. Luckily, alhamdulillah, I have my kind, sweet and beautiful wife by my side. Oh! and the little baby in her belly of course! Its already been 7 months and in a couple of months we'll be expecting the baby in sya Allah. Life has been changing like superfast and I know it will never be the same again. Honestly that scares me. But then again, like an english proverb said, "No one like changes, except babies in diaper."
So here we go again, while trying to figure things out, lets pray that Allah eases our path to His mercy.
With Much Love,
Abu Razin.
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